“There are three things that are never satisfied,
four that never say, ‘Enough!’:
the grave*, the barren womb*,
land, which is never satisfied with water*
and fire, which never says, ‘Enough!’*
* The certainty of the grave sits like the infamous elephant in the living room. The grave waits for all.
* An empty womb lays barren of Hope. There is no satisfaction in the loneliness of want.
* Thirsty Land – a baby bird with its mouth open. More. More. More.
* Fire – all consuming – unable to stop its craving. I won’t stop until you stop me.
They all shout their cries:
Not enough. Not enough. Not enough!
Most of my life I’ve lived under the cursed words: “Not good enough.”
For too many years I listened to the words until they had become my own:
“What you do,
and how you do it,
and who you are
is not good enough.
And it will never be good enough.”
I strove. I anguished. I rebelled…I gave up.
I tried everything I knew to quiet the demon that held my ear and my heart for so long.
And then a gentle carpenter from Nazareth slayed the dragon for me.
Yet sometimes, still, I can hear the echo of the dragon’s taunt:
You’re not good enough – you are an empty grave waiting.
You’re not good enough– you are an empty womb mourning.
You’re not good enough– you are a thirsty land panting.
You’re not good enough, Jane – you are a raging fire burning everything in its path.
But today, in this eve of new beginnings, I let the Dragon Slayer speak Truth again to me:
Jesus is enough – Death no longer waits for me. I am redeemed, bought by the blood of the lamb.
Jesus is enough – Christ in me, the hope of glory. Life given to me in abundance, filling every perceived hole.
Jesus is enough – Out of me will spring living waters. I need never – Not. Ever. – be thirsty again for anything except Him.
Jesus is enough – His love is my consuming fire. He is producing gold in me.
… And I am satisfied.
What a sweet New Year’s reminder to know Jesus – still and forever – sets us free.
Jesus, you’re all I need for this new year. No, You are more than enough. In You I am complete. In You I am “good enough” … In you I live and move and have my being – I am made whole today, tomorrow and forever.